i'm seriously considering flying out to SF next month for robin blaser. i'm not sure if i should. first off... maybe it is too soon for me to be in San Francisco again. it could make me feel even more homesick than i feel already. i like what ken rumble said to me... "you could be in Paris and still feel homesick." it isn't about Durham being "bad." it is about San Francisco being where i lived and where i always wanted to live growing up.

what i like about durham is i only work 5 hours a day. and i can spend the rest of my time writing... or... when we've actually finished setting up house i can spend the rest of my time writing. i actually prefer the high heat to the SF freezing ass summer. the music scene is awesome. people have time to spend... you can actually get things DONE here. there are a lot of super creative people and they all seem to crave the company of others so there is a community here that is up & ABLE to spending time doing what it is they really want to do. in SF i was tired ALL THE TIME. and sick. i worked my ass off and maybe would get out to one of the millions of events and then crash. maybe it was choice fatigue [and i said no a lot] but there is no choice fatigue here. not yet.

[there is heat fatigue.]

anyway, i was saying i might go see robin blaser in SF because i really would like to see him & my pals... i've never seen robin blaser read & i feel like i should take advantage of the opportunity. but then... there are so many places i haven't been on this side of the country... like DC, kaplan , how do we know what's going on there?

we'll see. i may not be ready to tease myself with SF right now. i may have to venture to Philly or New York instead.