dear blog.

i know our therapist told us to take a break from each other while we were breaking up... but i just want you to know that i'm angry and hating you.

love,
kate

dear blog,

why are you dragging ken and chris into all this?

god.

i totally resent you. you just piss me off.

dear blog,

since we broke up last night i have started running. and i am going to Baltimore with Ken Rumble this weekend to see him read with Gina Myers & justin sirois. i'm going to get to hang out a little with ryan walker, too, i hope. i'm moving on blog. moving on.

i'll probably have a film when i get back. maybe we can talk about it? that's all we ever did well blog. that's all.

dear blog:

i'm breaking up with you because you are a filmmaker and you don't understand me.

it seems like you should, but you don't.

chris says i must explain this. that you won't understand right away.

you'll have to wait.

as you can see

i'm not so into the blog lately.

it has been fun. but maybe it is over? maybe we can be friends.

maybe i just need some space. do my own thing. you do yrs. maybe get in touch again in a few months. o, sure... we can still meet up for poetry readings. totally. but... i just feel... a little... i don't... stifled. it isn't you. it's me. i'm going through a thing. i just want to be free to do whatever i want. take a break. run a marathon. write some poems. maybe even finish my books. you know... i'm going to be 36 soon. i have things i need to do. i just don't want to be linked to you so much. i've got so much to do and you .... you have all the space in the world to be whatever you want to be... 

i don't know what else to say.

i'm just not feeling it.

it isn't you.

it's me.

Capital Theater, Passaic, 1979

"Meet me in the fields behind the dynamo!"

my mixtape list.

last night i read w/chris vitiello in brian howe's MIXTAPE series. it was a lot of fun. chris and i decided to switch off reading AND riff off what the other had last read... so... it was even more fun.

here's what i read:

SET 1 [responding to Chris's set 1]

"what i know about henry darger" (Collage History of Art) JOHN D'AGATA, excerpt from Halls of Fame

"Penrod and the Rattlesnake Boy" HENRY DARGER, excerpt from The Story of the Vivian Girls, in What is Known as the Realms of the Unreal, of the Glendeco-Angelinian War Storm, Caused by the Child Slave Rebellion

"The Collector" passages H4a,1 & H4a,2. WALTER BENJAMIN, The Arcades Project

SET2:

Spoke, HANNAH WEINER, first 15 pages.

"Sonnet L," and "The Secret Life of Ford Maddox Ford," TED BERRIGAN, The Collected Poems of Ted Berrigan

SET3:

Memoirs of My Nervous Illness, BRANDON BROWN

"A Red Wheelbarrow," excerpts from Homage to Creeley, and "8" from Language (for Maggie), JACK SPICER, The Collected Books of Jack Spicer

"Literature and the Right to Death," MAURICE BLANCHOT, The Work of Fire

IMAGINARY/ ON HAND / SET4:

"Fugitive State" SUZANNE STEIN, Both Both in loving memory of PZA issue.

Cousins, ALLI WARREN

Conference, STACY DORIS.

introducing...

jack peyton eli manning pringle-zurawski!

and, yes, we are reading the fucking awesome new book from chris vitiello ... which you can order HERE.

haysi fantayzee - shiny shiny

this was THE song.

haysi fantayzee

i used to love these guys when i was a kid.